I hope to leave a post before 2010 end, and ya....

What have I done in 2010??

Think through lots of things,

been through farewell, grown up, tears, laughter, anger, surprises,

but what I got back??

TYQ leave my world,

Mr.Nod guy never will be by my side,

my dearest friend gotten negative result of her health,

should I been through all this??

I swore,

if my chances of getting a new relationship can exchange for a good health for her, I am willing to change,

and so the chances got taking away faster than I gotten it..

I spent years for this chance, but it taken away within hours..

GOOD JOB ar??!!!

I always never learn my mistake,

I always know how to console others,

I always hoping for things that never fulfil on me,

I always failed..

Never for once in my 20 years' life, never..

Can I exchange my life for hers??

Seeing her with so many friends, I thinking how many friends will really shed for me if I exchanged with her??

I will rather let her see my pain than I suffering from her trauma still need to face the reality of his rejection..

I am not as brave as before..

Hey,

I have this thought..

I gonna go beach for countdown, by my own if I cant find a person to accompany me..

How cool can it be??

Mr.Nod guy,
you win again..
Trampled my faith once again and tear it into pieces which even harder for me to join it back, I must thanks you..
Because the hurtful I fell, the more I will escape from it, the more I wont touch it,
the more.... I wont trust it..
There wont be a person to hold for me when I fall, so I choose to be careful my own..
That night, that answer, that stubborness,
I cant find it back, I guess it buried together with the answer..
As friend, I will try my best to refrain, this time it is for my sake..

是不是我太幸福了，所以得让我失去些什么？

是不是我离快乐不远了，所以得面对些什么？

是不是我成熟了，所以要能看得开？

Please, I am willing to exchange Mr.Nod guy for her health,

I can forsake the efforts, just purely wait for the miracle to come,

and if I do so, please bless for her health..

Mr.Nod guy,

I am afraid..

I really hope that you can be there for me,

and this point of time, stay by my side and console me..

But even if I typed the message, even if I keep telling myself the next minute I will send the message, but......

I cant get over myself..

Please, 2011 can you be good??

I beg you, please.......

我虽然会舍不得，

但你一定能理解我的，对吗？

So it was another time..
Same like 2009, and welcoming 2011..
I hope this tradition will carry on even after we graduate..
=DDDD

Sweetest moment,
contented feelings,
uncertain answer,
everything started from last night..

The person who say love always lose a hand,
and I always reveal my real heart..
That's why,
I lost every battle..

I pray for new beginning, aim for goal, hope for love

Everything remain the same as last year,

nothing changed, not me and not you..

I asked someone the same question,

I thought if he can give me a different answer maybe I can figure out something,

and ya.. He really gave me a different answer..

If you ever remember, I asked you this question before

"if I tell you I drunk will you come and pick me up??"

your answer was: "if I am there I dun mind, but confirm you have friends around that can send you home.."

But today I gotten another different answer: "if you need me to pick you home, just give me a call.."

So which is better??

I am confused too..

When everything started to return the past, I realized I haven learn my mistake always make the same mistake..

When I thought everything can at least be hidden, then I realized the more I hide, the more I feel the pain..

When you chose the path at that night, I realized we finally cant be together..

原来，对爱你的人幽默，其实是在对他残忍

时间，在我们不经意时已经过了一年，

而我们，也同样过了三年。。。

How I hope someone can pass me the answer sheet to all my questions, I seriously hate to think of such things at this timing..

So what if the period come back??

Does that means I gonna torture every moment from now on??

Does that even make any sense??

I dun see the need, so what the fuck happened on me??

There is always a time I miss the man so much till I need to drink or cry so that I can feel relieved, and I guess thanks to the man I can really cry or drink a lot when the times come..

Tonight, I chosen to be awake and face the reality, and how I hope facing reality in a more effective way..

Maybe even I lost my way,

what should be the right way, what should I do next,

I have no ideas too..

The story, I stopped..

I had the thought to continue, but I have no thoughts how to continue..

If the way I face this relationship can be like the way I quarrel, it might be easier..

20 years old

it shouldnt be the age to grumble or complain over singlehood,

indeed it is the time to think of future, think of money..

But I guess I still stand at the point and turning around, thinking that the world is moving while I am moving, but the fact is even if I stop moving, the world will also never stop for me..

Maybe life will be easier when we graduate,

but I know I rather face the saddness attack than facing the truth that I will get lesser chances to see him after graduate..

I really cant bear it..

哭了，

痛了，

恨了，

但。。。也爱了

I just wanna update my blog, because TWITTER is the new blogger~~~~

2010 coming to the end soon,

recall what have I done in this entire year??

I guess nothing but studies, FYP, figuring out who I walked towards too..

And so once again, I failed to get myself attached in 2010..

Let's wait for 2011 and see if I am going to be single again??

Christmas wishes, New Year wishes, Birthday wishes

every year wished for the same things, but always one that left unfulfil..

However, I wont give up hopes,

if not I am going to left with nothing..

Good things worth the wait,

good person worth the love too,

I will wait for the person I loved,

since there is no one like him appear in my life right now..

我向天起誓，

我会快快乐乐的。

Finally calm down a lot,

it had been a long journey for me..

Nothing changed eh??

I guess everything back to the same like how you first left me behind,

and that was when I fell in love with another guy and totally forgot how much you have given me in these eight years..

SO now, can I fall for another guy again??

It seems like a silly question, didnt I have someone in my mind there is why I refused leaving with you??

I cant imagine till the end I still chose this path,

I really thought you can change my mind, but till you told me the reason I changed was because of him then I realized you are right..

Whatever is it,

that didnt change any facts, because I still picked this path myself..

And I finally knew it,

no matter how loud I screamed, no matter how courageous I walked, no matter how firm I said,

ended up, I still hurt myself, hurt you..

And you wont be back like the past, no more birthday wishes upon your return, no longer have you to be by my side if I meet any problems..

Now I think back, if I didnt came into RP, if I picked the path that have you, if I hold onto tightly, does everything that happened on us be a little happier??

It really proved the saying right,

"everything is destined"

if you didnt leave me behind in the first place, I wont fall for him,

if I didnt confess, you wont grab the chance to come back and console me,

if the scene didnt repeat, we wont be thinking that we were back at the past..

I promised that I will grab tightly onto the happiness in next turn,

I promised that I wont shed much tears after you are not around me,

I promised that I can face the reality bravely,

I promised that I am still the old DAPHNE you fallen for,

but do you know that, I dun think I can live up to your expectations..

我把我们的故事再看了一遍，

从我们相识，

到和Calvin在一起，

到David离开我们，

Calvin结婚，

你的告白，

我们的相爱，

原来。。。我们的回忆时如此的多，

多到让我足够好好欣赏一辈子了。。。

王子就算假扮成平民，努力学习仿冒着平民的一切，

但他依然是流着贵族血统的王子，

不可能成为一个普通的平民。

女孩，一再忘记自己不是公主，

即使知道不可能与王子白头到老，甚至还怀疑过自己对王子的真心，

可女孩没想过放弃，一直到第一次的离别让女孩的心有了个答案，

但没人明白，女孩的心还是会痛。。。

或许王子和女孩只能注定擦身而过，

他们停留下来的日子，只足以证明两人是情投意合的情侣，

可是却不是分不开的恋人。

因为，如果真的深爱，不可能舍得放手。。。

女孩答应王子，她会找个平凡的男人来爱她，

但王子却无法允诺女孩，他能找个公主来代替女孩。

因为女孩的身影，已经深深的刻在王子的心里，

那个流着血，流干泪，流动着的心，

不能再容纳另个人，更别说是公主了。

王子静悄悄地走进了女孩的心里，

女孩并没有做好准备接受这样的恋情，

或许她已经经历了别于一般的打击，

所以对‘爱情’这字眼无法深入地透视。

女孩万万没有想过，王子是对自己有意思，

她只是心疼地望着、陪着王子，

原来，两人不知道的就是爱苗其实已经在各自的内心里发芽了。

迟来的爱情，

让两人十分不舍，

但是依然顺应天意，一步步地走向命运的轮盘。

他们很清楚，冲破轮盘只会遍体鳞伤，

不是他们害怕受伤，而是两人都在为彼此着想，

两人都舍不得对方因为自己而被伤害，

所以，彼此都忍着痛，分开。。。

王子，

女孩想对你说：

“请你开始为自己着想吧！我会好好地过没有你的日子，会努力地步上我的梦想，即使可能不会如愿，我还是会很努力的！幸福，或许在你离开后，我依然没法得到。不过，我能答应你，我不会放弃寻找自己的幸福，因为我知道，只要我能幸福，你也会幸福的！王子，请你一定要珍重，不要辜负了我们当初拥有的梦想！我深信你一定能做的更好，因为你知道永远会有个人打从心底支持你，永远会有个人对你深信不疑。”

王子，女孩在这儿和你说，

她曾经爱上一个落入民间的王子 - 陈毅镪

她曾经想过和王子昔手过一生，还规划好了未来，

她曾经为了王子深信永久，

她曾经把王子放在心里最重要的地位，

她曾经愿意不顾一切地和王子牵手在一起，

可是，她的那些曾经不再会出现了。

女孩做了无法回头的决定，

只祝愿王子能一切安好，这样她就不愧此诀了！

陈毅镪，

我曾经深爱你。

对不起。

The more I stopped myself of thinking, the more I realized the time is drawing near,

in less than 3 days time,

I had been telling myself, I am the one who pushed him away but I cant control myself of not thinking about the life without his accompany..

How selfish am I??

Now I think back, if I can quarrel lesser with him in the past, if I can be more firm in my stand of not letting him step into the society again, if I can spend more time with him, maybe now we wont be that unbearable..

The time we have right now is after my school, he come over to drive me to his house or go have dinner together,

it seems never enough for us..

I had been reminding myself,

Daphne, dun be upset cannot regret, you chose this path then face the consequences,

I really hope to do till no regrets, but I felt the pain deeply into my heart..

历史一再重演，

我们的结局却没有因次而有所改变。

是我太固执，

还是你太善良？

我想，这是个没有答案的问题。。。

I know, we shouldnt quarrel..

I know, we should be loving..

I know, we shouldnt cry..

I know, we are not meant to be..

Coincidentally, the date falls the same..

27th August 2008, 27th November 2010

I wish to convince myself it is just a coincidence, not fated..

But who knows the answer??

I must have been too overboard nowadays??

Ever since I am clear of my own heart, never spare a thought to you, just go by my way, finally irritated you and made you picked the date so early??

I shouldnt be that selfish,

I am in the fault, really in the fault..

There is no longer 'YOU' in 'MY' life,

only 'OUR' memories that spending the times with me,

what left behind till the end, can only be 'memories'..

So nothing stay by my side forever,

one day David left without any signals,

and then Calvin married after my stubborness,

so the end, you left because I changed heart..

就算我心里其实有个角落，

一直在呼唤着你，

但我没法做到，毫不顾忌。

比起我们的爱情，你还有更沉重的抱负，

而我不愿成为你另个抱负。

我们，

从此就分为，‘你’、‘我’

只有提起回忆，才是‘我们’的！

The 8th year for our friendship,

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY~~~~

17/11/2010,

I always love this date, but I also know after this year I am going to keep this date in heart and never able to celebrate anymore..

Couldnt imagine you guys have been in my life for 8 years,

when I first started with my life, when I been through so much things,

you guys are always there, supporting me, stand up for me, accompanied me through saddness and happiness, I really LOVE you guys!!

Calvin is leading his life real good, happily living with Alice and his two kids,

he never want this life at first, keep saying those things that he cant do, but seeing how he treat Alice right now, I know my decision was right..

I learnt alot from them,

I believed you did too..

You always love me more than I do and always love me longer than others,

what changed us??

Is it really my heart changed, or simply we cant fight against DESTINY??

Then I guess I am going to lose everytime,

I told myself wont give up the next time, but who knows??

Anyway, gonna give the visit a miss this year..

I am going myself, because there is no longer someone to go with me,

I know David wont mind, because he can see everything happening on us..

Life is unpredictable..

I guess this is why we should cherish our life more..

HAPPY 8TH ANNIVERSSARY!!!

To : Calvin, David and Yi Qiang..

And, I really LOVE you guys..

=DDDD

我学会，不再说‘对不起’

一直到你离开的那天，我才对你说。

我们。。。不要在这段时间里说‘对不起’，好吗？

等待再等待，

回应我们的依然是残忍的结局，

我曾经感激上天让我遇到了你，

可是现在，我却在责怪上天让我离开你。

就算找回了失去的勇气，

我还是没有继续追求的自信。

不要和我做那种约定，

我还是会照着自己的方式幸福的，

这点，我还能答应你。

不是你不够好，

而是我不能好好爱你，

但你需要的，却是个能爱你的人。

不要只为我着想，你自己不会为自己想想吗？

你做的已经够多了，

是我太过分，滥用了你的痴心来满足自己寂寞的心灵，

应该是我乞求你的原谅才对啊！

我不知道没有你陪伴的日子，我会怎么办？

毕竟，你从我懂事以来就一直在我生命里，

不曾离开过，我也从来不觉得你会离我而去，

可是，随着年龄我渐渐发现，

真的没有任何东西能长久。。。

我会好好的！

会好好的吃饭，

好好照顾自己，

好好念书，

好好的幸福着。

而你，也请允诺。。。

*爱你的话都在这里*

11/11

11.11

I made two wishes today, will it come true??

I dunno, but I guess always fulfil the first two and not the last one..

I must learn from my mistakes, always fallen into the same trap again and again..

FYP report need to be done soon,

then can say BYE-BYE to RP partially before December,

and finally I cleared my CE points, which means I can just focus on my studies not thinking if I cant graduate without clearing the CE module..

=DDDD

I hate to admit we are going to graduate,

this is the fifth week of this semester, 10 more weeks to go..

Yes, it should be something to be glad of, but I am just afraid,

what if those good friends stop contacting each other??

I know, a bit too paranoid but ya..

2010 ending soon,

last year I hope this year will be better, but when I recall what had I done in this year surprisingly to realise that nothing much..

Gone through alot??

I think always the same, when the feelings come and goes, when I cant find any courage for that simple question, when we are still the same..

Next year will be better??

I hope so, a bit special or surprise??

After all, it is gonna be my 21st..

当我想起我们在一起的画面，

奇怪的发现，我居然能够为我们的回忆添加更多的色彩。

或许你不明白的，应该就是我藏在笑容里的眼泪吧？

还是，你的答案一直都不曾改变过？

那。。。为什么我还是没法清醒呢？

Finally some pictures for the blog, the rest put on FB..

=DDDD

I always need to forgive and forget,

and when I always did, you dun even bother to rake it up when we quarrelled instead you mentioned about those times that I didnt agreed..

I seriously have no ideas what more should I do,

not that you dun love me, is just that you are too paranoid or sensitive over certain things..

OK, fine..

Quarrel too often will ruin our relationship, so better shut up..

有得必有失，

我想当我失去了勇气，

老天相反地给了我机会。

我一定会好好谢谢它，

给了我，一个我祈望以久的机会。

是该满足，不该贪心。

所以，我谢谢这个难能可贵的机会。

I lost again,

"never lose hopes"

it never fall on me, because I always need to face the reality..

I thought just at least like me look at him from far, I will be contented over such minor action but now, even such minor action cant be done..

It is my punishment??

Then I guess it is a little too harsh for me,

why cant even grant my little wish??

In the other hand, I should be happy for him..

He is moving on to his dream, he know what he wants, he hope to grab his dream,

the only thing I cant get over, is he might leave beyond my sight..

I have already difficulties seeing him often, if he really decided how much more can I see him??

I am not as courageous as I think of,

cant really handle things like that right now, how will I settle things in the past??

Out of a sudden, I missed him..

Miss him deeper than normal, wanting to talk to him even more,

but I cant get myself to do all those..

I guess this is the only way to finally cut off each piece of contact with him,

which means I finally should give up on him already..

OK,

end of this topic..

I dun wish to continue thinking about it..

原来，每个人真的都会离开我。

我爱的，爱我的，

一直到最后，他们都会离我而去。

I dunno how many "LAST TIME" must I mention,

because November is drawing near and I hear nothing from you..

Despite now you are right beside me,

I still feel the uncertain, hanging on the top and driving crazy soon..

You always deceive me, non stop..

The funniest thing is, I keep falling into the trap..

I know this is wrong, super wrong!!!

But why am I still doing all this??!!!

I must be real crazy..

OK, drop the subject dun wanna ruin the mood for today..

Actually want to go Sentosa for HALLOWEEN celebration, but YQ said I scared those scary stuffs no point going,

then I want go Night Safari, at least can take tram around and see but YQ said I got night blindness what is the point to go,

so ended up went to his house celebrate with his bunch of brothers..

It is not the matter of being 'lightbulb',

I think the atmosphere is more important because just with YQ, I think can bored till max!!!

He can be romantic, if I asked him too,

but everything I need to say out, what is the point??

So I rather spent time with a bunch of friends, of course except for those memorable dates..

如果我落下一滴眼泪能让你回头，

那我愿意哭都眼睛红肿都无所谓！

可是如果我的眼泪让你内疚，

那我选择转身离开。

He is looking for me already,

BYE BYE~~~

*i wish, i wonder*

KPOP fever~~~

KPOP fever this few weeks, I kinda of regret didnt went for the KPOP night which ended few days back, and now I gotten the news that tickets Super Show 3 is drawing near, next month can start purchasing but I seriously not sure whether should I go or not??!!

If I lost something and I gain another, I guess I lost my faith in joining NIE but I might gain the success to my bursary??

Just allow me to think this way..

OH YA,

this few days keep feel like drinking and clubbing,

already trying my best to refrain but can I just club another time??

PLEASE!!!!

FYP still going on, report submission is on next month but no much stress yet,

just created a Live Journal too, which means gonna post in blogspot and live journal both at times, but this few months feel reluctant to blog, twitter seriously became the most effective blog now.. =DDDD

And, special diet gonna start next month on the 1st November, as in I going to cut down my total fats consumed, thinking of maintain a better body figure.. =P

I realized I have lots of unhealthy habits,

no matter in my lifestyle, preception of love, communication, befriend,

but for once I feel that some of the habits cannot be kick away, because it is just me..

Nowadays keep chatting with guys about the differences between guys and girls,

put myself in their shoes and thought of what they are thinking,

kinda fascinating, as guys will actually feel in such a way..

=DDDD

*i did what you say, but did you saw it?*

22nd again, 39 months, 156 weeks, 1092 days, 26208 hours, 1572480 minutes, 94348800 seconds..

He told me that time might be leaving in this day, but who knows he didnt even bought any tickets, because he already planned to buy on day ticket..

So till now, I still dunno when he leaving, he also not sure about it..

I just hope when that day reached, I can control my tears..

His birthday was awesome,

finally not bringing me to those without air-con restuarant,

seafoods AWESOME!!!

Clarke Quay really nice nice in SEAFOOD..

=DDDDD

So he managed to find the present among those bears on his bed,

despite I gave him like 3 or 4 hints beforehand, his brain not good still..

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA..

Anyway, he like the present which is expected..

=DDDD

Marina Barrage tomorrow, as a belated celebration for today, for 39th month of us..

关系非凡不代表复杂，

只是我不愿去理清楚，

只要我自己爱，有什么不行的？

Will there be times that I gonna break with a boyfriend after I found another I love, then the situation repeated again and again,

so till the end, I left with alone..

I will then now waiting for the guy who can say what I am thinking without me saying anything, keep falling in love to capture the right feelings..

So wait, waiting, waited..

=DDDD

19th October, 2010
24th Birthday
To a baby boy whom came to this year 24 years ago,
walked into my world, grabbed my hand and loved me as much as he has, as long as he can..
TAN YI QIANG,
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY~~~~~~~

生日快乐
真的希望你永远快乐
^_^

First surprise:
My gift is wore around the neck of Mickey

Second surprise:
I pasted words all around his room

Third surprise:
A letter that touched me and your heart

Hope you like everything..
And this is really the last last time..
=DDDD

命运

它一点一滴把我推向你，

是你在祈求我的归来，

还是我的要求太过分？

有得必有失

所以，我失去这个机会，得到的会是什么呢？

我不甘心！

我一定会再努力的！

就算一大群人告诉我，在你身边才是最幸福的，

但。。。我不想没有努力就放弃！

陈毅镪

你什么都好，唯一不好的是，

你对我不够狠心！

这也是为什么，让我最痛心的！

Mr.Nod guy,
I write those thing in FB, but dun seems to attract your attention, of course because I am a nobody in your life..
Karma
I just need want to have the courage to clarify my doubts, if only anyone can transfer their courage to me, then I might get an answer which relieve me..
I miss you,
like always without failed..
But I know cant be any greedy, because I have no stand for anything..

Baby told me he is leaving soon,

maybe the same date as the previous time he left,

the 22nd..

So I felt the pain, felt the sadness, felt the loneliness, felt the guilt..

Baby, must you really pick that date??

I dun see the need to pick the date, but why must you insist??

Hoping to see the history repeat, or just it is a must??

I dunno, seriously I am confused..

Looking through those past posts, I realized I am actually talking about him everytime,

and everytime I thought I given him up, but it ended up to be a NO, therefore I even give up hopes to believe if I am really still in love with him..

Anyway, he wont be coming to me and tell me, he is actually in love with me??

So what's the point for me to holding onto those foolish thoughts and hurt the person whom loved me the most??

I dunno, really NOT SURE!!!!

Please whoever give me an answer, so that I can give it to Baby too..

I felt that I owe Baby alot, more and more, increasing everyday, each day when we are together..

I cant repay back to Baby, never ever able to repay back..

Because my heart now also dunno fly to where already, but definitely not with Baby??!!

Mr.Nod guy,

why are you still around my mind??

I never once give you away that's why I keep thinking about you??

Then could you please give me some hints??

How should I chase you away??

So that I wont pester you again and I will be relieve from the memories of yours??

I am the one who make the decision??

But why could I still see your presence??

I seriously dunno what to do right now, say GOODBYE is the first step followed by TEARS then what??

Alighten me then..

*my heart : it hurts*

I KEPT MY HAPPINESS TILL NOW,

AND EVEN NOW, I CAN STILL FEEL THE HAPPINESS..

=DDDD

My prayers are heard, and came true..

I just see everything simple so that I wont feel any unfair or worthless, in the other way I still feel happy.. =DDD

Maybe Mr.Nod guy changed me so??

Because I will never be that easily contented in the past, but now for that few hours I even happy till now, crazy!!!

I guess actually I am still in love,

not only just puzzled if because I cant get him, that's why I keep holding onto him,

my doubts might be clear now??

And the answer can only given by him??

If he say "OK", then I think my answer will be "YES"

A person can forsake a long term relationship when he/she found someone whom meant for them, in other's eyes the person might be bad because a long run relationship had been destroyed by he/she, but if feelings can be controlled, then none will fall into the LOVE trap??

So I forsaked a good relationship, just for someone I known for three years, but who should be the one to blame me??

The guy that loved me, the guy I loved, or the one whom left with nothing which is me??

10/10/10

Didnt get a chance to celebrate, because Jordan isnt in good mood, Jessica isnt in good condition, frankly speaking I am super disappointed..

Will the same thing happen when we plan to go Taiwan too??

Then seriously I will be loads loads loads disappointed than now!!!!

I want go Taiwan, a MUST go plan..

Can I get a boyfriend before graduate??

So even if Jordan or Jessica couldnt make it, I can still go with my boyfriend..

OK, fat hope ar!!!!

当每件事都牵动了我对你的心时，

我想这回才是我真正能看清自己内心的时候。

我有答案了吗？

其实，答案一直都埋在我心里，

只是我不愿承认，我依然爱着他。

Mr.Nod guy,
I remembered telling myself that I gonna forget everything of you, but why did I still pull myself towards you again??
I think is because I had already gave myself a timing, 23 years old, 3 more years from now..
Actually, maybe those actions cant say anything, because you are just such a guy that will treat everyone so nice, maybe till the end I am the one who think too much, isnt it??
I always follow my heart, believe my instincts,
so now I can continue believe it again, right??
The answer keep hanging but none able to get it down,
I am going to wait for another guy that can take over your position then I can fully put you down??
Then, let me just hold onto those memories now..

我不骗你，

我还是会痛。

不会没有感觉，

因为我们有着很深的回忆。

或许他出现的时间的确刚刚好，

又或者是我推你离开的时间不对，

还是我们真的注定要结束了。

在那个末尾的夏天，

和我一起熬过来的是无数个想念，

但我学会把想念埋藏起来，

而当我成功时，我却爱上了个不该爱的人。

这可能才是我最残忍的报应吧？

这次的离别和上次不同，因为我不指望你会回到我身边。

其实，我早该认清这事实，

在你决定踏上另一条道路时，我也应该潇洒地和你说 BYE-BYE。

但是我却自私地把你留在我身边，陪着我度过那段最艰难的日子，

所以现在，我决定靠自己的力量走未来的路。

而现在，

在你就要离开的前夕，我却还在思考他对我作的一举一动是什么意思。

这样的我，

连自己都快受不了了，为何你还能紧抓着不放呢？

八年的时间或许不短也不长，

太短暂因为我们时间永远不够用，

太漫长因为我们了解永远办不到。

这是不是为什么我们能如此作出这样的决定呢？

我好想听到答案的回音。。。

对不起！

我再次至上十二万分的歉意！

到最后，永远、命运、爱情、勇气，

都不属于我们，所以这次我不得不认命了！

不说再见，我说保重。

不说爱你，我说记得。

不说幸福，我说快乐。

那么了解彼此的我们，或许在能这样微笑地看待事情吧？

GoodBye, My SUN..