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This are my afternoon activities, woke up at 12plus with my never changed nightmare, not about cats instead about the incident few years back..

Maybe I had been thinking about that last night, so it appeared into to my dream and tackled me for the whole night..

I had been forcing myself not to wake up, because in that nightmare surprisingly I am not scared instead I felt secure, back to the past, back to the real innocent DAPHNE..

However, time is never gonna return, I had grown up, undergo changes, going through my destiny the way it is..

Few hours ago, I woke up unwillingly with my nightmare vanished, then I filled myself with words, research, music, shows,

but I just realized, even though I am busy, even though I am occupied with things, there is no way for me stop thinking the nightmare, there is no place for me to hide my tears..

I seriously HATE the way I am now!!!!!

WHY will I turned into someone I dun even recognize????

On phone..

Yi Qiang : "Tomorrow you free?"

Me : "I think so, why?"

Yi Qiang : "We going to meet someone, you want come along??"

Me : "Who are the 'we'?"

Yi Qiang : "Calvin, me and you, if you going.."

Me : "OH.. Go meet who?"

--silent for 5 seconds--

Yi Qiang : "If you dun want to come, can no need to come.."

Me : "Meet who? So secretive??"

Yi Qiang : "The son of the driver called us and asked for a meet.."

Puzzled?? Confused?? Anger?? Coincidence??

So this is the message sent by the nightmare??

This was why I will saw the pooh bear yesterday, had the nightmare last night, then I received such message today??

Why everything popped out now??

It is really my punishment, wanted to see my heart quenching with blood and shattered into pieces again..

I keep telling myself, I must stay calm, must not shed tears, must smile or laugh, dun think too much, it is just a coincidence..

But I just couldnt convince myself, how I hope all is just a prank or maybe a dream,

however, I feel the pain right in my heart, heard the broken sound within my heart, saw the reality right in front of my eyes..

Therefore, I learnt to wake up, I must wake up..

How will I react tomorrow??

No one able to tell me the answer, because even I myself dunno the answer, but I still agreed to go meet the guy, wanted to know why he asked us out..

Could it be like what drama shows??

Before the accident, David had some words for us, despite his words come too late..

I dislike this kind of regrets!!!

你离去的第1985个日子，我又再一次获得你的消息。

If you are listening or you will to see it, please enlighten me, David..

Just like what you did for me in Calvin's wedding, help me again then..

女孩失去了勇气，失去了自信，她剩下的只有记忆和还没坏掉的脑袋。

至少，女孩还能装出坚强的一面，

可是男孩却没有回头看看落下倔强眼泪的女孩。