if ii know it will become like tat,
ii wont even step out of house...
however,
there is no 'if'.....

firstly, feel so sorrii to poly friends....
xiujing, sing ning, cordelia and gang....
ii thought it will be a fun day,
however.... a phone call spoilt whole thing.....

ii dun wan my life covered with all this!!!!!
if fight or cold war can settle all this,
den let mii the one....
ii know ii am not tat important,
however, if ii am able capable to do it,
ii will do it!!!!!

if "GOD" realii disallow my life be sweet with my eye candy,
and use this problem to punish mii,
den ii can sae.....
ii admit defeat to FATE and DESTINY again!!!!!
ii am realii afraid tat ii wont have strength to hold myself down,
juv yesterday.....
ii stood at window for more than a hour,
thoughts, memories flashed through my mind,
it seems tat nothin able to keep mii behind.....

at last, was a phone call tat made mii woke up.....
dun bear to see mii,
cryin, thinkin foolishly, calvin called....
dunno whether is it true,
juv nice he finished talking with yiqiang,
and yiqiang asked him to call mii....
calvin chat with mii for about 15mins,
ii have no much energy to continue,
so hanged up....

TAN YIQIANG.....
is it true tat you can sense my sadness???
becos ur timing is always so accurate.....
even it was juv coincidence,
but ii still willing to believe tat you are able to.....
as if ii dun believe,
ii might hurt more and deeper.....
if this will be wat ii get after giving my feelings and heart,
will ii still pursue LOVE????

there are something ii wont admit defeat to FATE,
becos ii know those things can be achieve if ii work harder....
ii might not work enough, so ii cant get wat ii wan,
till the day if ii worked hard, but still cant get wat ii wan,
ii will den believe,
there are realii somethings tat hard work cant changed....

当一切回到原点，
你已经不在我身边了，
我还执著于什么呢？？
我们在两条直线上行走，
无论我们走的再快、再远，
我们也不会有交接的一天。。。
那我是不是能，
跳下我的直线，
往你的直线上走呢？？

我是否还有勇气去追求自己的幸福？？？
这个答案，好像只有我自己知道。。。
虽然知道我又会受伤，
但是。。。没努力过就放弃，
我会很不甘心的！！！