it is so stupid for mii to tink of you le....
you are juv like JACOB,
ii like JACOB when ii played a prank on him,
den ii like you becos it develop from an eye candy feeling....
but till the end, ii wont get anii thing....
so ii no need to pursue it anii more....

ii contradicted with my words in previous posts....
ii said wont take initiative to talk to him or let him sense anii thin,
but ii still did...
ii said ii wont develop anii feelings other than eye candy,
but ii still did...
ii said dun wan hurts and scars on myself again,
but ii still did....
ii didnt do wat ii said at first,
so ii deserved all the hurts and scars....
tis were my punishments,
cant blame others for it....

ii talked to TAN YIQIANG,
for the past two days....
his birthday is coming....
this sunday, 19th of October, Libra man....
22nd birthday to TAN YIQIANG....
the verii first birthday without mii celebrating with him....
in the past 6years, we celebrated together.....
but this year, ii cant celebrate with him!!!!!
TAN YIQIANG asked mii,
if ii wanna go over and celebrate with him....
is realii a verii crazy act....

ii couldnt leave here,
in the past ii cant, now ii even cant go.....
lots and lots of things happened,
ii didnt leave together with you,
now ii oso do not have the rights to leave....
somemore my problems still not solved yet...

okiie...
if TAN YIQIANG, dun scold or nag mii....
he wont be my MR. NICE le....
but everii time nag the same thing,
verii siian le...=PP
my dear oso wan mii to take care of myself,
dun worrii everii one....
ii am FINE, realii FINE....=DDD

manyu....
give mii my BELATED present first,
den ii can buy yours willingly!!!!
hehehehex.....=DDD
ii keep chase you for my present siia....
hahahahax.....

这六年来，你是抱着怎样的心态来面对我？？？
从我和calvin在一起，
到我们放开，
到david离开，
到我交一个个男朋友，
到calvin结婚、生孩子
到你告白，
到我喜欢上别人，
到我失败，
到你要离开了。。。

我们之间存在的，
是对彼此的疼爱，
还是你一人的付出？？？
我到了你要离开时才给你‘名分’，
而你也从来不会向我多要。。。
“你从来都不知道，我有多爱你”
“你其实是用我不懂的方式来爱我，对吗？”

ii wont start searching for my the other half,
at least show some respect to TAN YIQIANG....
and now, ii cant pursue happiness yet....
becos, more and more things dumped to mii....