ii wan a twin brother!!!!
ytd when ii am on bus heading home,
there were this pair, board the bus...
at first ii thought that they are couple,
but after tat, cos bus no seats,
so the girl sat beside and the guy sit at the front....
when the bus came to ave 4,
the seat beside the guy was empty,
he wanted to call the girl,
but she is sleeping....
so he sit inside and lean his head on the mirror,
after tat, the girl saw the empty beside him and went forward...
the girl juv thold the guy she wanted to sleep,
and lean on the guy shoulder....

ii realii thought they are couple,
but shouldnt be, isnt it????
cos right in front of mii got a couple,
the guy put his arm around the girl and let the girl sleep,
but for tat sibling the girl was sittin the outside seat and juv lean on the guy shoulder....
they should be brother and sister, right???
tat makes mii oso wan a twin brother....
>_<....

today in school....
maybe some thoughts juv flashed through my mind,
so suddenly carved to eat ice-cream....
at last ii bought instant noodle...
after meetin my previous classmates,
my mood suddenly become good siia.....=D
oso dunno wat happen to mii....
but dun worri, not becos my current class tat makes mii feel like tat,
was other things else....

everii one said,
pursing happiness will need to take the initiative...
does it means tat, when ii saw the guy ii like,
ii need to take the initiative to get near him???
ii need to take the initiative to know him???
ii need to take the initiative to hint him???
ii need to take the initiative to let him love mii like ii do???
however... wat ii said above,
ii did it before....
but.... it FAILED!!!!!

so wat for ii still take the initiative to do all these???
there is why tis time,
ii wont make myself a fool again!!!!!
if he dun like mii, den ii wont drag myself in and let mii look likes ii am so despo!!!!!
ii hate loving secretly,
but ii hate most tat it will make mii look like a fool....
whatever ii thought might not be whatever ii got....
so ii muz learn not to put in too much effort on somethin, which ii wont get anii returns...
maybe some people will tell mii,
this kind of things need not anii returns....
but no returns, mean you didnt earn anii thing....
the onlii thing you got, are hurt and scars....

who is able to fill my emptiness in heart???
sometimes, ii juv hope tat my heart is made of metal....
hard enough to hack care everii annoying thing,
still enough to neglect everii one feeling....
however.... heart is the part tat consists of all our emotions....
even though we can still survive without the beating of heart,
but we will be juv like a corpses with no emotions....
in tat time, ii wont have to feel sad, happii or angrii,
but..... is this realii wat ii wan????
ii dun even know wat ii wan,
so wat is the point of pursing all those things???

*is another not my day....*