why others could see how much ii give in,
but my family cant???
iziit becos they thought ii wont leave them alone,
iziit becos ii am closest to them????
but wat ii asking for, is juv a console given by them......
juv becos ii didnt express my emotions,
tat means ii am strong????
ii am NOT!!!!
is juv tat ii couldnt find a place to retreat my useless,
so ii need to act.....
act as if ii am strong,
act as if ii dun care.....

ii need to admit tat,
tis was wat ii chosen,
so ii shouldnt grumble here....
but why do ii feel so unwillingly now???
ii shouldnt have tis kind of thoughts, isnt it????
however.....
wat ii gave, didnt returns.....
ii didnt manage to got back wat ii put in.....

why should ii always be the one tat took everii initiative???
ii care but others didnt....
ii worrii but others dun give a damn.....
so, wat is the point for mii to care or worrii???
ii am not a noble person,
ii dun need others to praise how great am ii,
ii need someone to tell mii,
he will settle everii thing for mii....
however.....waited, waited and waited.....
till someone came and leave,
ii still need to wait.....

TAN YIQIANG....
verii heart break now ma???
ii accept your apologize,
but ii am in wrong too.....
"how long will you take to forget a relationship????"
this was wat ii asked you,
"till the end of my life, ii will never forget!!!"
this was wat you replied.....
sometime, things will need to happen on own,
then we will know how it feels.....

manyu, so coincidence siia....
one of yiqiang's friend oso gettin married soon....
but it held at hotel, and ii tink is at RAFFLES HOTEL oh....
hahahahhax......
somemore if ii not wrong.....
it is at the day, fei lun hai concert ticket signature session....
16th of Nov....
hahahahax... ii might be attendin his wedding....
his friend is older than yiqiang 4years,
which means older than mii 8years....
now 26, with his girlfriend 5 or 6 years le....
so sweet hor????
can get marry.....
ii scared when ii am there, ii might envy them siia....
hahahahahax....=D

why onlii to TAN YIQIANG,
ii forgive him so fast ar???
to jordan, ii dun seems so fast calm down,
to him, juv an apologize, ii forgive him le....
strange siia, to myself.....
maybe it realii look at the person ba....=D

TAN YIQIANG.....
tell you now first, before you know it....
everii moment now, ii intend to raise my hand to anii alcohol.....
ii told myself to restrict myself,
but it looks so tempting....
shawn wanted to meet mii tml.....
with them, bottles of alcohol in front of mii,
how could ii not tempted???
ii tried it once, but it realii feel so terrible....
afraid the next time cant tahan the temptation....
if ii drunk, dun worrii.....
it is juv nearby my house,
and shawn will sure sent mii back home....

当他靠你很近时，
当他愿意让你打骂他，
当他愿意随传随到，
当他温柔地问你要吃什么、喝什么时，
当他只对你一个人笑，
当他为你打架时，
当他会为你改变时，
那个人和你的关系，真的只有朋友吗？？